Ever have one of those moments where you never saw THAT one coming? Where you found yourself free-falling through time and space, trying to grasp at anything along the sides to anchor yourself to? Where the tongue on your shoe was the only resemblance of a working mouth on your body? Where your thoughts and emotions were blindly swirling around in a vortex pulling you further and further down a seemingly depth-free drain?
I've experienced several of those, and each one has been an unparalleled life changing experience for me. I wonder if those were the times that God decided to SNAP me out of my comatose state of living; if they were the next wake-up call to take inventory of my daily activities, my daily priorities, and my daily relevance in the grand scheme of God's plan for me. It would make sense, as I am certainly not one who picks up on subtle hints. .
I look at the past sometimes and think to myself 'How could you not have known that?'. I try to tell myself those life experiences allow me today to look back and clearly 'see' things that I was not ready to 'see' then. Those life experiences bring clarity to the present; bring a collective essence of knowledge to refer to; bring a collage of memorable emotions to draw upon..
Today, March 10, 2012, I fully accept that I stared down the spiraling drain of nothingness last week, and I did not drown. The all too familiar territory following urges me to be on the lookout for what's coming next; to take inventory of my time and the space that I occupy today; and to thank God for always taking care of me...........because I truly did NOT see that one coming.
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